Sunday, November 23, 2014

It's the little things that say so much

Me (incredulous): Why do you have a picture from Beetle Juice on your phone?

Him: Um...

Me (clarifying): I mean, I noticed it because I had it on MY phone just last week. It's kindof an obscure thing you don't see.

Him: Well...

Me: The only reason *I* had it on my phone is because I just happen to know someone who looks like that.

Him (falling on the ground laughing): Ohmygod that's why! That just sealed it. We're soul mates.

Thursday, November 20, 2014

CG --> BF

It's a month, now, of seeing Conference Guy. I'm going to stop calling him CG and start calling him BF because whatever this is that is happening between us is amazing and it's not casual. It doesn't make sense but we've stopped trying to understand.

"I can't wait to wake up next to you in the middle of the night for the first time and suddenly realize you're there. It would be like falling in love all over again."

"Sounds like paradise."

(Sent from my phone)

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Warning labels

"I have a terrible sense of direction!!"
"Don't worry, we'll get lost together."

"I have 'back.'"
"You're perfect."

"I'm very sensitive."
"Me too."

"I take a long time getting ready."
"However long you want, love."

"I need to eat every 3 hours."
"I'll pack snacks for us."

"Family get togethers might not always be enjoyable."
"I'll roll with it."

I can't throw anything at this guy that scares him. It's amazing. HE is amazing. <3

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Some thoughts from today

-- It's still not easy to hear about the girl the Cyclist is dating, and I don't love this. It means I'm not completely past it yet. However, I *am* finally at the point where I want to offer more "friendship value" by being able to hear what he's up to rather than shutting it down selfishly which was kindof a shitty friend thing, so at least I'm moving past that.

-- I hoped being totally into Conference Guy would erase previous feelings but it hasn't, at least not yet. But that's probably part of being human and all of this is pretty recent. But I appreciate that he and I can even *talk* about this, and all kinds of things actually. The kind of emotional bond we are growing is pretty amazing.<3

-- I checked my teeth on the shuttle to make sure I hadn't been yakking away at lunch with spinach lodged in my teeth and noticed, of course, my fucking hair. Can't it look nice just ONCE??
-- Whatever!

-- I'm so entirely exciting about moving next week, if all goes as planned (and it may not, so we'll see, there might be delays).

-- I'm thrilled at the idea of no longer playing trash jenga. No more roommates!!

Friday, November 14, 2014

Exuding insufferable joy

Maybe it's good that I'm trying not to write so much this month because all it would be is disgustingly gushy and romantic.

Conference guy is amazing. He gets more so by the hour. If I had put together the perfect list and custom-ordered a man, I could not possibly have gotten a better guy.
Perfect for me. <3
Just kidding, the secret formula is really this:

Anyway, while this blog is somewhat of a diary (I have other, more useful things elsewhere online), I still do not want to be responsible for inducing vomiting, so it's quite fortunate that the timing is such that November was going to be my "off" month.

So, I'm visiting my BFF now 3,000 miles from home and she's been making fun of me all week. "Asplenia's in loooove," she sang. I didn't notice because I was texting hearts to my new beau, so she sailed past, announcing his name to no one in particular. I snapped to attention.
"Bahahahaa!!!" She howled. "Look at your face! Even the sound of his name makes you happy. I don't think I've ever SEEN you like this!"

So, yeah. Life is good.

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

learning to love again (cartoon)

I woke up to this, from Conference Guy, who is showing me how to believe in love again:
Copyright Gavin Aung Than,
(Quote from C.S. Lewis: "To love at all is to be vulnerable.")

Monday, November 10, 2014

diving deeper

I wasn't going to write, you guys, but this... this thing that is growing between me and Conference Guy is off the charts. Maybe there is such a thing as early love, I never really believed in it before for myself although I've heard of it for others... but when it clicks, it fucking clicks, son. I can't get enough of him. We're now 3,000 miles apart and texting each other love songs and if it's even possible to fall even harder for someone you're still getting to know and haven't even, well, officially culminated the relationship with, it's happening. It's a fucking incredible, amazing ride.