We talked. It's over. I ended it. But my instincts were correct.
I just deleted my online dating accounts. I don't want to date anyone anymore right now. I will spend the winter reading novels. Fuck love.
You know, we weren't emotionally attached so why do I feel so shitty?
THe loss is real. The (feeling of) hope being dashed are the heart strings stretched, as they (your heart, mind and spleen) were open to change, to a new possibility.
ReplyDeleteLove is a by product and should not be "the" goal. Rest your heart (mind, spleen and the rest of you)
The most terrible advice I could give you right now is, "The time that you make for yourself, to be comfortable in your own skin, and confident in yourself...that you are least likely to need a relationship and most likely to stumble into one. Confident independent women are the most attractive IMHO."
- M.O.
Gah. Sorry you're feeling shitty.
ReplyDeleteBut proud of you for taking the steps you need to and not passively letting others steer you.