I feel like I should be ashamed of the reason it had to end so it's difficult for me to say it. It feels like I'm broadcasting proof of my unworthiness. Like, if I were special enough, it would have overcome the barrier. Even if logically I know that's not true.
So, why did it end?
He is hung up on someone else. He likes me and all, but is crazy about her. That's why his signals were subdued.
It was really nice of him to be honest with me.
And I am really glad I asked.
The exchange was very friendly, really was a nice way to end things. But oh how I hate that moment where you both know it's over but now he has to walk you out because the neighborhood might be unsafe and you both are smiling starchy smiles and all you want is to get the eff away so you can mope alone with terrible thoughts like why am I so unworthy of love? I will be alone forever.
What a ridiculous fantasy, to think love can conquer all. Love can be crushed by the most mundane things.