I court myself when I get into bed. Tonight I covered it in fresh sheets and tucked the blanket in just so, readying it just for me. Then I washed my face, brushed my teeth and eyed my bed across the room with a deep thrill, knowing I would soon declare the evening over, obligations replaced with me-time. I will crawl inside with delicious anticipation: the next half hour I can do whatever I want. Read, meditate, draw, sit quiet. How delicious.
My favorite time of day is the night, it always has been. Stolen private time with my
thoughts, a delicacy of solitude for feasting.
When I was a
kid, I was always losing my keys and couldn't find my shoes and never
had pencils for school or had my homework. I make up for this as an adult with an almost
obsessive amount of orderliness. It relaxes me.
Now, my keys live in the one spot. Shoes stay by the door. I know exactly where to find the flashlight
in the dark. My ex was shocked that we never ran out of toilet paper.
I always carry a pen and paper and my phone charger, metro card, coupons... anything I
think I might need in a given day. Life is so much simpler now. Things
that once caused so much stress are nonexistent. When I discovered it didn't have to be that
way, it felt like I'd won the lottery. It's so easy to prepare for the
small things. Let life's stressors come from the big things we can't control.